Hi Niecho,

It is so awesome and honest that you managed to identify the culprit: fear!

Fear is a bear - it can creep up when you are thinking about playing (as it did in your avoidance of guitar), and when you are actually playing. 

Sometimes it can take the form of physical tension in your hands if you 'fear' what you know to be an upcoming chord or section that tends to give you trouble.

We anticipate messing it up, we fear messing it up, and the fear creates a mental and physical state that actually makes messing it up more likely! Snaeky little demon.

So good for you for calling 'fear' out - that's powerful stuff!

-Lisa